I was feeling choked up inside
Looking for something that I could not find.
You feel like your chest is about to burst
And every second that passes it gets much worse.
How do you stop this pain that’s
Eating away at you
And there is nothing that you can do.
The pain starts at the pit of your stomach
And works its way to your heart
Yanking, and pulling, and tearing it apart.
Your mind is running a thousand miles a minute
Wondering what’s causing it , what is in it.
Why do you feel like you want to cry
And it is something that you know you must hide.
No one can see what you are going through
Because this is something that has
Never happened to you.
How can you explain to others
What you yourself do not understand
Who is to help, who can give a hand.
Some may say it is depression
And that’s the reason you want to cry
But they can not feel it, and they
Can not look inside.
I believe it to be all the human emotions
Straining to be free. And one by one
They choose to gnaw at me.
Love, joy, sorrow, and hate
Just to name a few, all of them gnawing
Doing what they have to do.
Then came the realization that I’ve
Been searching for.
This is one of the crosses that
In this life we must bare.
And like millions of others
This we all share.
Now I feel elated, because now I understand
And now I can see
All of the beauties that GOD has laid
In front of me.
( through struggles we become strong)